Our 2010 Woman Of The Year
Lufisto has had a hell of a 2011.
The 31-year old has had a mixture of ups and downs in both her career and life. On the negative side, she was denied entry to Japan back in February, and also found out that the hole in her heart which was to be surgically repaired was four times bigger than the doctors thought. As a result of the surgery, she has been forced to change the way that she lives her life, as well as making sure that she avoids catching infections as much as possible.
On the plus side, the Super Hardcore Anime was named the #1 female indy wrestler in Quebec for the 8th time in 9 years, finally got to wrestle Ayako Hamada in her home promotion of nCw Femmes Fatales, as well as pass the torch (and the Femmes Fatales International Championship) to her protege Kalamity in the main event of Femmes Fatales VII last month.
As many know, LuFisto injured her back about five years ago that kept her out of the ring for some time. The injury flared up again following her match with Hamada back in March, and she has been fighting through it ever since, defending the Femmes Fatales belt and making two more trips to SHIMMER in that time. However, it seems the injury, as well as other issues are starting to catch up with her to change her feelings on wrestling.
Yesterday, she posted up her feelings on her personal Facebook page, and has given Ringbelles the permission to reproduce it here for you to read. Feel free to leave her a comment below, as we will pass any messages on to her.
Dear Wrestling,
It’s been almost 15 years that we are together now. With you, I lived many dreams. I saw the world. Even when people were telling me I would never be able to stick with you, here we are, still together after all these years.
I must admit that I thought about leaving you many times. You beat me down, told me I was too fat, too small, I wouldn’t do anything good in life… You even hurt me to a point where I thought I wouldn’t be able to walk anymore. I gained so much confidence with you… But you would take it back, again and again…
Because you were my lover, I spent many nights alone in some hotel rooms and at home. Some people grew tired of me because I was gone all the time and that you were much more to me than what people could see. You were a way of life.
Running through my veins like a poison, you consumed every little bit of me, eating my muscles, my bones, giving me scars that will remind me forever that at one point in my life, I chose you over everything else.
You know, I was fine with all the pain you inflicted me. I wanted us to succeed. Twice did your major friends close their doors in my face but I decided to stay strong. We went to Japan, Mexico, Germany and so on…
At one point, I even decided to give back your love to others, to have children of my own… It’s with pride that I see my daughters Sweet Cherrie and Kalamity gracing the rings everywhere. I’m a proud mommy although now I’m very concerned on how they will manage this hell you put me through.
I don’t know if it’s because I matured or because there is so much I can take but I’m tired of you.
I was sitting backstage last Saturday and I took a minute to look around. What am I still doing hanging out with you? Why did I work so hard when I see others treat you like you mean nothing, like you are just a game? After all, is that what you really are?
Maybe I gave too much in this relationship? My self-esteem, my health, my relationships with others… You always have a way to get me back into your arms when I want to leave but this time, I feel I just had enough…
You remind me how beautiful you are when you tell the world that Madison Eagles is the No.1 wrestler according to PWI, finally someone who REALLY deserves it… But then, you make me sick by reminding me that Sara del Rey doesn’t have enough of what the Beautiful People have…
You tell me I finally have a chance to live my last dream… Not only to tell me a month later that, I too, doesn’t have what it takes according to the new people you are dealing with…
You beat me down, I get back up… The never ending story of you and I. I though you loved me but it seems we have one of those love-hate relationships.
Anyway, I could go on and on… I’m not sure if I want to leave you as you hurt me more than ever. But one thing is for sure…
I need a break.
Your most devoted lover since 15 years,
Gen… That you only know as LuFisto.